Love

Dreams sometimes predict your future,
or your destiny,
but in others your imagination runs free,
and creates a pure fantasy.

So do what you wish,
and wish what you may,
but I'm saving my dreams,
for another day.

For them to come true
is the ultimate goal.
So keep on dreaming
and let the future behold.

Dreams hold the future,
and also the past.
This is the perfect dream,
but it cannot last.

It cannot be perfect,
it would make it surreal,
for without any problems,
then I could deal.

Could deal with my life,
without any grief,
nobody to cry for,
no one to weep.

Poverty would be gone,
and homelessness too,
all the problems would be gone,
and I could just be with you.

But with all of these problems,
and all of these troubles,
I can't be with you,
my fate only doubles.

My love for you strong,
but death growing stronger,
problems of the world
are my problems no longer.

22/10/07

This date.. aku pengsan pat keje... punca nye pasal.. lum mkn, hypo giler... and also menstration nie dah mcm 3-in-1. Nasib baik aku pengsan pat keje kalo aku pengsan pat luar???? nampaknye memang dah kompom kene admited.

Hmmm.... dat tyme nak mkn tghari sblum go work... tapi tak selera. hmmmm sampai keje bendera merah... setgh jln uat keje dah hypo giler madang mkn gula2 je bab nak tahan diri dari pengsan. End up! pengsan jugak aku pat nurse counter.

Amik BP 87/43 Heart rate 57.... Lepas sadar tu rase mcm nak muntah pun ade.

Well, Aftr aku pengsan tu i called "him" bt he act dun bother. I felt lost and hurt. Tapi takpe.... I still stay strong. Unfortunately, my peers called me up to remind me to go my break coz aku nie kadang sebok uat keje sampai lupa nak mkn. So i told my fren lah i just gt up from pengsan n i cant afford to go down n buy food. My peers ask me to go home but aku masih nak terus kan keje aku... Indeed my ward sister and colleague aku did help me. Thank you so much u guys...

So dat day... aku manage continue keje aku till 9.30 and i get my parents to come n fetch me. nak harap kan "die" silap2 aku tak balik.

The next day aku amik MC rest kat umah advice from GP aku n Sister aku.

Btw... This is my 2nd Fainting Pat keje

1st wen i was still at SGH n 2nd 22/10/07 KKH